I miss my sister

Kristen in CT

Its been a little over 3 months that Kristen{my oldest sister} has been missing.  Right before mother's day of this year, she asked my Aunt Mary to watch her son{Jacob} and has been missing since.  About a month ago, the police were able to track a number down that got us into contact with Kristen, but after a very strange cry-out for help phone conversation from her, we have not heard anything since.

Many people have asked me what I think happened, or why I think she left...and all I can say is there was a lot going on in our lives and maybe she needed a break...BUT still it doesn't make sense.

Besides missing her, what I think about often is our relationship right before she went missing.  I have always been extremely close to my siblings but after my mom passed away, mine and Kristen's relationship felt very strained.  We were living together at the time, which I think made things very difficult and complex.  Looking back, my biggest regret was my constant judging and commenting of her lifestyle and further her parenting skills.  For some reason, I would feel the need to jump in whenever I felt something were wrong...now I think about it and it wasn't my place.  What I see now{wish I saw back then} is that being a single parent is unbelievably hard.  Jacob was her life and she did everything for him, while also working full time to support little man.  I wish I could take back all the arguments we had, all the harsh words, and negative comments but I am hoping that soon the time will come that I can giver her the biggest hug and tell her in person how much I love her and miss her.  

Kristen, Kelly, Me (top to bottom)